If you let anything, even embarrassment, keep you from what is being offered then you've likely not really found your thirst yet. That's not a criticism, but it takes that real "want" in order to do this. If you need help getting back on Keys, that's easy.
Thank you for the friendship invite,and Welcome to the community.
Hope to learn more about you at some point, if I can help you in any way with my network of people, or charities and faith groups please let me know - it's time to connect people on a peer-to-peer level using communities such as this.