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"Is the past a misdirection" as someone recently emailed me?
"Is the answer in the future?"


So, maybe I'm not so----oh---off the beaten track with all of this shi(f)t stuff?

Or, I don't know---there's this part of my mind that is sorta saying to me--
"Look, Little Miss Earth Person, Would you please--- Shi(f)t or get off the pot? You know you're not the best of candidates to deal with change!"

You know, I resent that--now that I'm thinking about it, I don't think I'm all that bad at it.
In the past 2-3 years, I believe I have been challenged to--kinda---accept change. I don't necessarily go outta my way to seek it out, nor do I force feed it to myself.
But, since I'm writing about all of this now, which is kinda freakin' the heck out of me (if you must know)---this past year has been filled with the opportunities for me to learn to shift gears, frequently.

I'm not looking for a pat on the shoulder, nor do I need to hear "Oh poor you, AkashicWreckage! There, there now---just take a break from change and all of this other stuff.
Go take a nice little bubble bath, light some incense and put on a New Age CD and things will get better. And, don't you go worrying your recently touched up head about all of this."

Change---

Will change assist in bringing passion unto my life?
I have set out to consciously change---I did the cancer gig---not easy, but not the worst thing in the world to deal with---and certainly not all that painful. I invited change into my life after that, what choice did I have?

I did the divorce thing---not easy, they say, for middle aged women.
It wasn't the hardest thing to do, and don't call me a beyotch, it wasn't painful, and it wasn't devastating.

Good Gravy!
I can't believe this----
Some Record Keeper in my mind just interrupted this little self love fest I have going.

I totally forgot, I opened my Akashic Records on the turnpike on the way down here to work!

I am being corrected and reminded of something that I experienced.
I am being brought back in time to one particular day.

I had an appointment with an attorney to begin the divorce process. As I was driving there, suddenly I became aware of this jagged, almost lightning like thing with my vision.
This is an early warning sign that I get before a migraine.
I had been lucky before that, when I would get that sign and if I took Tylenol right away, I wouldn't get the migraine. It had been at least 10 years since I had experienced an actual migraine.
Well, I had nothing with me, to ease what I knew would be coming.
And, at that point I was a good 10 minutes away from the attorney. I had allowed more than enough time to get there, so I arrived and parked the car.
I sat there, overwhelmed with the pain and the nausea.
I sat there knowing that if I couldn't get the relief immediately, I might walk into the attorney's office and just throw up.

What a first impression that would be.
I wondered if that had ever happened to anyone before?
Maybe they kept barf bags there in the waiting room?
I didn't care, I didn't want it to happen to me.

So, I did what came naturally. I began to pray.
I called out to anyone who might be available---calling all angels, archangels, saints, whoever might not be busy, I implored Arch-Angel Raphael to help me.
I begged, "Please take this from me, now. If there's some kind of lesson in this, that I need to know, feel free to give me back the headache when I get home."

Then I began to pray the Our Father. And I sat there with eyes closed, trying to will the headache and nausea away---

Suddenly, I heard my cell phone vibrating, alerting me to a text message.
I picked up the phone, flipped it open and I see----

Nothing.
Nada.
No text message.
Nothing.

As I looked at the phone, totally dumbfounded, but 100% certain that I HEARD a text message coming in----I realize with a great big HUGE whoosh---

My headache and nausea were gone!
Not just a little gone, gone as if it had never happened.

Immediately, I knew.
And, I laughed and laughed and shouted within my car, "Thank YOU God, thank YOU ArchAngel Raphael, thank you Angels and anyone else who was hanging around!"
I went into the attorney and began the process.
So---I have been corrected by the Record Keeper---it wasn't without pain, and I don't mean just the physical reaction I had to the step I was taking that day...
It was a milestone, a point in life, that while not devastating, it did have a huge impact on me.
And, apparently, with that nausea, my 3rd chakra was adjusting to these changes.

And now that the Record Keeper is here, I am being helped to keep this in perspective and aligned in truth.


I wonder-----change-----Is part of change divorcing ourselves from that which no longer serves our highest good?
Highest good---do we consciously address this, or does some Record Keeper, along with guides and angels---well do they meet up and plan out this stuff?
Do they get together over coffee to work out their strategy, and then toss it our way to see what happens?

I think I must have pissed them all off---probably a few lifetimes ago, and this must be some kind of Divine Retribution or something.
What else could explain last year's sudden divorce from so much that I had depended on to light my way and help me on my spiritual path?
Or maybe it was that I leaned too much on the cards, or the CD's or the gooey, gooey spiritual stuff?
I'm telling you, I had a pat spiritual answer for EVERYTHING.
"Coffee too strong?
The angels are telling you to weaken you grasp on the illusion and strengthen your spiritual center!"

So, while last year revealed the end to much of what I thought I believed in, I was challenged to shift and change.

Back to---Is the past a misdirection?
My dad used to say, and if I recall correctly it was also the name of a book:
"If You Don't Know Where You're Going, You'll Probably End Up Somewhere Else."

I almost feel that perhaps I've believed this---that If I Didn't Know Where I've Been, How Can I Make Sure I'm Not Somewhere Else?

And!

Right now, at this very moment, I am having an Aaaaaa-----haaaaaaa moment!

When that Question was avoided 4 years ago---I was not the Change Maven I've NOW come to see that I am!
I was totally scared Shi(f)t-less!
And, as I've written this, I wonder----

Is the Answer to The Question (Yes---I think it is)---what has come in the years since then?

Is the Answer to The Question--
What will bring passion into my life-----
Found IN Change?

As this just exploded within my head, I am at work---writing all of this in my notebook.
The phone rings, and scares me!
The person at the other end, calling to ask a question, identified herself---
Her name is----- no joke, I kid you not---
Change!
A person named Change----calls at precisely the moment that I have MY answer!

I love it!
Once again, in the midst of questioning The Question, finding the amazing answers---
The Universe has once again stunned me, with the confirmation that could only thrill me, send chills through my body!

And, as I made my way home last night, as I was recounting all of this to my Beach Buddy---what do you think we saw?

A green shooting star!

So, I think back a bit to the email I received that brought up the question at the beginning of this---

Is the answer in the future?

The answer to The Question---What will bring passion back into our lives---most certainly must be found in change, which cannot be found in the past.

Okay, now that I've gotten outta journeying to find the answer---I realize that my answers have been coming all along, with each decision, with each obstacle, with experiences----with questioning what I use as props, with throwing out what is not in my highest good. Through the darkness and the light, it's been there all along----

Change brings passion into our lives.

Whew!
Am I glad I figured this all out---this serious stuff has been a challenge.
Now I can get on with my true work---

Investigating the Grids, The Retrograde Chakras, The New 4th Eye, The Striking Spirit Guides~~~~

God, I love it!
(Written Sunday night, April 19th---reviewed and revisited and finally posted)

Footnote:

Ha! Have I really come up with the nugget---that final answer, or is there An Answer to The Question?

Why is that Brown Robed Monk standing in front of me now?
Why is he looking at me?

He's got that look~~~you know the look I'm talking about, don't you?
It's that look that tells me that I'm not finished with this yet!
Someone tell him to Stop Looking at Me!

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Comment by Joy Hart on April 21, 2009 at 3:33pm
Great writing! Great content!
Keep shining,
Joy

        

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