Maybe I can tell a little bit about my recovery and what happened. It is a long long story so guess I better condense it down. Living 80 years has been a journey for sure, believe I started out like everybody else, born in Minnesota and had a fairly loving family, had no idea how loving until it has disappeared from my life. That is the beginning of my story. Had friends, and also was able to follow a little of my dreams, spent a lot of time with my grandparents which was great and this is where I learned about love, unconditional love, was a tomboy sort of for I loved to hike around and find beautiful places, help little birds who fell out of their nest and other small critters, kind of liked fishing but was alwys sad when I caught one for they looked so sad, sometimes I threw them back if they were allrlight. Loved all animals, especially the horses, my favorite next to dogs, learned how to milk cows and sometimes helped in the fields a little, the fields smelled to wonderful just loved the farmlands always and the wonderful foods that came directly from the earth, not out of a plastic container, how times have changed.
Anyway remember when first tasted my first alcoholic drink, at first didn't like it at all but later kind of liked it for how it made me feel. Had no idea what was to happen while I continued with this bad tasting stuff but a stuff that somehow allowed me to not remember so many of the sad times.
Continued on for quite a few years, controlling and becoming very allergic to alcohol for sure.
Did some strange things, ah yes for sure.
Today a different story for have a number of years without that so called magic elixer, not magic for sure at least for me.
Looking back over these many many many years and wondering, aha!! No regrets and a very grateful sober person this year and have been for 28 years, learning that any problems I ever had were definitely my own doing so that leaves me with a load of (stuff) to let go of and sure have and the repercussions of letting go of all the old ideas has helped me become aware of life totally, just in time for all this to happen (today) but it is okay. For I can see my mistakes, which have turned into lessons of learning by far, more grateful.
Kind of neat to look back and realize I just saw history in progress, participated in it and am now witnessing the end, not of life but a new beginning, sure am anxious ti review what will happen. Blessings in love and light to all.