About Heart & Soul, Sensitivity, Being a Hypocrite, and Healing Unresolved Stuff

[Rupert Guenther]

Musicians and creatives in general are such sensitive souls. Always picking up on energy and inspiration. And stress.

Yet somehow music helps put us back together again.

I really love music which has a lot of heart and soul. I guess that is what drew me to classical music as a child. However, after 30 years of playing music of the great past masters like Bach, somehow it isn't enough to tell someone else's story. I wanted to hear the sounds of my own kaleidoscope, my own most cherished spiritual aspirations, and to express these new ideals and energies in music in the 21st century. I find in playing and listening to new music, what really satisfies my humanness is music with real heart and soul, music which helps and encourages me to heal. Even playing electric violin in rock music, for me it still can have heart and soul, and it can still be very healing. I used to think that transcendence could only be found in ambient new age music, but now I find it often in many different styles and artists' work. I guess I grew up a bit from how I was seeing these things.

Coming from a classical background, myself and many musicians dedicated ourselves to spending a lot of time studying music. But we forget to study ourselves. This came at a cost. I found that despite the really beautiful music I was learning to play, I found that what was really going on for me in my life kept popping out in the music or at least disrupting it. Even when inspirational music began channeling through me later on - and it was such a beautiful new opening for me, it was like the real me - my old unresolved issues crept in again, and although I learnt that I could "keep them out", it was somehow creating tension between what happened in my music and where I was really at in my self in my life. It was like the was a separation between my humanness and my spirit nature.

I found that there was a lot of work to be done in fixing or healing myself. It has become clear that profound music starts with a deep relationship with self, not just our ego, and it means being our spiritual self and walking our talk. Now rather than just channeling it, I am finding that there is a new harmony when it is allowed to just be an expression of how things are in my own integrated love nature. Well, I am a work in progress here!! It has been very humiliating and grounding (and continues to be!), and has shown me where I need to heal things in myself.

I am so encouraged to see more and more musicians, especially in classical music where we have always played "covers" of other people's music, looking to finding their own new sounds and new music just as painters always have done, and that there is more interest now in unpacking our stuff and healing what is broken. Musicians can be healers and seers, and many are realising how a lot of our behaviour, thinking, and relating with self can often be unloving towards self. It quickly undermines our spiritual integrity if it is denied or avoided. Some healers we are when we fix others but neglect to fix ourselves!

Great to find this community of inspired sensitive souls at AOAND seeking to improve and heal themselves, and lead by example in healing the world!

I recommend you check out www.mysteryschool.org to see some awesome self-healing work and resources. I have found the mentoring there very helpful in becoming more honest and authentic with self. Very different to my days of meditating a lot but being in denial, and not opening to the human truths in my life and making some tough choices about loving and respecting myself - basically being a hypocrite!

I love that my life is the journey and my meditation. I love that I can be out in the world being inspired, running workshops, giving concerts, mentoring people, and not have to find a cave to find myself. I love that I don't have to be perfect to be authentic, but not to let my ego use that as an excuse to indulge in less than love and respect for self. I love that healing the planet is about all of us becoming empowered by making new choices, not just someone coming to "save us". And I love that nothing is certain yet we can always choose a loving response. And life gives us plenty of practice opportunities for that!

Have a great day being your best : )

Love
Rupert

[Steve H]

Great insight! Thanks for sharing that Rupert. It is true how we need to make sure we are physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually healthy, otherwise we can't have as much impact helping others achieve that. It's all woven together.

Peace to You and All,
Steve