It Hurt Too Much To Force My Drug-addicted Nephew Out of my Heart

[Ron Alexander]

Angels In Charge Over Me - They Help Me Maintain One Heart "For he shall give his angels charge over you to keep thee in all thine ways." Psalm 91:11
Ron,
I liked your commitment at the end (to being more of a human being rather than a human "doing") The most healing thing you can do is let this go. You are not in control of the outcome. It will play out as it will, no matter what you do. His mother's enabling of him is way beyond your intervention and, ultimately the consequences are hers to deal with. Years ago a business associate told Jim and me this and I have never forgotten it; "The three hardest things to do in life are:
CLIMBING A FENCE LEANING TOWARD YOU
KISSING A GIRL/BOY LEANING AWAY FROM YOU, AND
TRYING TO HELP SOMEONE THAT DOESN'T WANT HELP.
Best, Linda

Thanks, Linda.
I had a great prayer after church today, and realized the worst thing for me is when I force anyone out of my heart - so with the help of Spirit I put Barry, My Aunt, and all others involved back in my heart and I feel joyous again.
Olivia's prayed with me after church and her Wed. Night sound healing sessions have been so helpful! At two different sessions with her, two different people (who I did not know) said they saw angels with me. The first was Archangel Michael and then others were seen this past Wed. I am asking these angels to go to all involved for the highest good for all.
I agree with you, I let go and let God through the angels, while keeping them in my heart.
It hurts too much otherwise. Thanks for being an angel friend, Ron

"All my words I shall speak to you receive in your heart". Ezekiel 3:10

Ron, EXCELLENT!! The hurt and anger you have been feeling can only hurt you in the long run. At times the negative thoughts may try to come back, but remember what Gene Wall Cole said. Just say "Cancel/Clear". It works. It isn't that you devalue the thoughts, you just erase them for your own well being. Linda

I sent Barry this email: (the photo of the worm would not paste but that is o.k. as it was uglee!) Jumbo Worm: This 4-foot-long sea worm was devastating coral reef and terrorizing fish at an aquarium in Cornwall, southwestern England, the Daily Mail reported Tuesday. The creature, known as "Barry," devoured bait traps -- hooks and all -- and bit through a 20-pound fishing line before staffers finally managed to capture it. The worm was moved to its own tank.

Barry, the Real you is the photo of you and Honey when you were about 2 or three.
You still have that "Light of the World" in you. When you were young, you did not know a stranger, and everybody loved you. Well, you still have that Real part of you, and you can get back to being the Light of the World again! You may feel as low as a worm just now, but, that is not who you are.
There is grace, in Christianity, where you don't have to earn that part of you, all you have to do is to give your life to the Lord! I still see your light and have faith in you, Uncle Ron

"For he shall give his angels charge over you to keep thee in all thine ways." Psalm 91:11
Barry, I asked Mom several times while she was in the hospital to send me a guardian angel, well according to feedback from a couple of people I know l am now surrounded by angels. I was told that I could ask them to go help you too, so have faith that you are surrounded by protective angels who can help you renew the Lord's Light in you! Pray for this renewal. "Create in me a pure heart, O God, and re-new a steadfast spirit within me."

"It is sure that those who hold grievances
will suffer guilt,
as it is certain that those who forgive
will find peace." W, 119 (A Course in Miracles)

[Ron Alexander]

Honey, my wonderful dog in the photo, went to California with me. I visualized doing my internship with Jerry Jampolsky at his Center for Attitudinal Healing. This came true in 1986, and with the help of a grant and the staff, I started the first Young Adults Group, and that was the best time of my life working with those life-threatened yet spirit-enhanced Youth. Honey became the group's mascot and would sit in the center of the healing circle until about half way through, and then she would move to the feet (on the feet) of the most hurting young person. They loved it! Also, Honey would be a great companion on our field trips, pulling wheel chairs etc. Service is the best way to grow in peace, Ron

[Ron Alexander]

This is my first post here, so I would like to add that recently my nephew inherited the bulk of my Mother's estate much to the shock of mine and my friends, especially since I was his caregiver at the time of Mom's death. He is now living elsewhere, as he did not want to live under my discipline - "tough love". This past weekend he wrecked his vehicle and ran from the scene of the accident, so he is in deep trouble again.
The inheritance, the way it is administered, does not give him any rewards for good behavior, unfortunately.