Lee's Blog (4)

Anxiety is new to me. I am not sure why now, or why so intense. I can only guess, due to specific areas of growth in my life, that I am feeling some things that I have not allowed myself to feel in the past. These emotions have likely accumulated to the point that, once felt, it is a bit overwhelming, and overwhelmed I am. In the end this is only a guess, but the anxiety is here, and seems to be hanging on for a bit. Due to this hanging on aspect I have decided to try and allow it to be there,… Continue

My youngest daughter turned 7 last Friday. Typically this is a time when her mother and I, though divorced, spend time in each other's presence in a most healthy way. This year though, my daughter wanted to have a sleep over. I began to feel a desire to question whether this was being steered in some way as the sleep over was, with each conversation, becoming more exclusionary to me attending any portion of the event. In the end, I was excluded all together from the event itself. The… Continue

This week I found myself several times wishing my boss would back off. See, my boss has tasked me with being his boss. Why, would anyone do that? Well, he realizes his value is in a base of knowledge he has. He also realizes that his ability to access and use this knowledge sometimes falls short of the mark. This shortcoming is due to a wildly active mind that does not operate in a linear manner. I am his linearity. We will often sit down and discuss a given problem for an hour or more, and my… Continue

Love is all there is. Even fear is defined from love. Without love fear could not exist, but love exists completely intact in the absence of fear. I can’t prove this, except to say there are examples throughout our history as a species of people that were able to emulate this. Love is the only self-sustaining force known. It does not need anything to be, it just is, and it is boundless. This begs the question, what role does love play in my life. In trying to answer this for myself I have come… Continue